I’ve experienced almost losing a friend during 2nd year of High School just because of certain misunderstandings. It all straightened out. We became friends again, with that bit awkwardness but it all turned out well after how many years. We still treat each other as one of the best friends we’ve ever met. Thank You Lord for that!
But what happened just this week was worse than what happened that 2nd year of my High School. [By the way, I am currently in my 2nd year of College. What’s up with the 2nd year anyway?!] Unfortunately, another misunderstanding happened. This “friend” [Yeah, I placed a quote because I am not sure with that today. :))] of ours kept on leaving us, making us feel that her other “friends” [Another quote because maybe she’s thinking that way. :))] are more important than us. [By the way, we were her friends when College started and when she wasn’t that conceited yet. Look how awful she has become.] She interpreted it the other way around. She thought we were the one leaving her. [Way CRAZIER! :))] It was a total misunderstanding. I have thought about it thoroughly. I want all of us to talk to her since we know she’s a person full of pride. [Guess what, I was hurt when she thought I am okay with her, that I don’t know what’s happening within our circle of friends. She always made me feel left out before this happened. At our history class, she even had the guts to borrow my book because she doesn’t have one. She explained to us that she did that for the sake of grades. Look how bad she goes just to get good grades! Thickest face ever!] When we talked, she told us that she planned not to talk to us or ask us what is wrong even if we reach our last year of College. She has many “friends” [:))] anyway. It’s just that we should just not step unto her. After she stated that, we already knew how BAD she is. We went together to a play. She was so overwhelmed of becoming an assistant of that play. [She’s just an assistant anyway, not the main cast. DELUSIONAL and LUNATIC!] We decided to go home after the play because we’re afraid of the recent MOTOR RIDING IN TANDEM crimes done in our city. She asked us: “You won’t watch the next round of the play? I’ll be the one who will dub.” OKAY?! In my part, I won’t support whatever you are doing unlike before because you only made us like your personal assistants and you won’t even appreciate the time we have sacrificed just to cheer for you. You might say that I am insecure. You know the person I am, I am not insecure like you. :))
I know, I am hurt but I was so enlightened when my mom told me not to. She might be TOO HIGH nowadays, but there will come a time that she will fall. Everyone might say that she’s so SMART and BEAUTIFUL, there will come a time that it will perish. Don’t just dwell on it so much, your head will be so big that you’ll become worse than a HYDROCEPHALUS patient. I remembered what I have written in my reflection before: IF THERE’S A RISE THEN THERE’S A FALL. She has “friends” anyway and I have too, so why push myself to enter her newly built boundaries? She values her position of constantly being the top of the class, so why value her when she doesn’t value our friendship anyway? There will come a time that you will come back to where you came from, we, the friends you have started from. Imagine, if we weren’t there for you ever since, would you have loyal supporters that would follow you around and just keep the burning pain inside whenever you insult us? But I do hope that this time won’t come. I do hope you won’t come back just because you need us. We’re not that smart like you but maybe our thinking was so advanced that you came to realize this all too late. PLEASE REMEMBER: IN LIFE, DON’T THINK ABOUT ACHIEVEMENTS. IT’S NOT IMPORTANT ANYWAY. WHAT’S MORE IMPORTANT IS THE WAY YOU’RE TREATING OTHERS.
All this hurts; I know it will all fade away in time. We’re humans. Humans have the capacity to change and move on with time. Feelings are temporary. My existence in this world is temporary. I just realized that I need to eliminate a person who was once I called a “friend”. I won’t even have second thoughts on forgetting you in an instant! I won’t waste even a single ounce of my seconds living in this earth trying to get our friendship back because it is totally POINTLESS. You know I am not the type of person who dwells on BAD MEMORIES so much. I won’t call someone a friend if he or she wasn’t there until the end. Funny because it wasn’t the end yet and you were blown by the air in a moment! :))
My message for you:
Thank you for all the memories, try to remember all of that because i’m starting to erase it! Thank you for you showed the real you earlier because we might have ended up lost in your SO HIGH road [Where in fact it isn’t.]. Whew, that was close.
Thank You Lord for letting me realize this and saving us from WILDERNESS as earlier as possible. :)